im getting over it. i think my people phobia is waneing, but i can still feel it in my chest. this little...pulling, slightly uncomfortable, inability to breathe...and strong urge to scream,whenever i am in town, in the car, walking...etc...
alex keeps asking if i am ok, am i sad...do i miss home.
i dont think that is it exactly.
as a little birdie said to me recently, there is an inevitability in the air. a force of strong, unrelenting change. this is what is takeing all power away from me and insureing that come monday, i will be a, dare i say it, drone in the system.
no no, not quite...
i am feeling the current, like a whirlpool, scoupeing me up and carrying me off in a direction i am too weak to fight against.
but at the same time, its not an all together bad thing. i think i am copeing with it quite well, i have no reason to complain this year, and i should think that i wont, but catching my breath is poseing difficult at this time, when thinking on the coming days and weeks,and year.
but i am going to keep my head up and try and see through the shrinking cloud, and carry on and smile, smile, smile
this is a painting i did for my granny's 80th birthday. dad asked me at the start of the summer, when i was doing the other portrait, which ill put pics up of later, if i would do the same for nan. he and i are both happy with the out come...all drama aside...
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hi Shelly, yes smile, smile, smile coz you just must go forward and bring out into this sometimes overwhelming world, your own unique take on itas Kiki Smith would say, you go where there is the most clarity .. Go Girl xxx
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